My grandmother died in her sleep two mornings ago. We don't know what happened. Two of my aunts tried to wake her up that morning and she didn't. My dad was crying when he told me on the phone (of course he would; that's his mother). Honestly, i'm more shocked than i am sad (i feel dead on the inside) because our grandfather was the one that was really sick with lekimia(don't f'ing know how to spell it). Then again, it's sort of a blessing because if our grandfather died, she wouldn't have been able to handle it well; it'd be too much for her. They were suppose to perform an autopsy on her which was the state law, but they decided not to for some reason i don't know why and assume she died of a stroke or heart attack.

Her funeral is this Saturday; we're leaving tomorrow. Everyone will be there of course, crying. So hopefully, i can control my emotions (probably not). All i can say is that grandma, if you can hear me, i want to say i love you very much, thank you for taking care of me and Brian*gag* throughout the years, and thank you for raising and giving us a father that is smart, strong, and loving. May your gracious soul rest in peace.*blows kisses to heaven*

OH MY GOD, DRIVING THERE AND BACK SUCKS ASS TO THE MAX!!!! GAH!! Anywho, i'm back and i feel alright i guess. I saw my grandpa at the hospital (holy christ he remembered me and Brian). The wake thingy was bittersweet because everyone of my family was there and it was really cool to see them all again but it was during a shitty time. And the casket was there too, closed, (my brother didn't notice, haha) Then we went back to grandpa's house and everyone was all happy all of the sudden, like WTF!?!? This morning was the funeral, Brian helped carry the casket, I brought up the gifts with 3 of my cousins, Everyone was crying; yes i had tears coming down my eyes but not bawling, i love my grandma very much....except for my dad, one of my cousins, and Brian (selfish bastards, jk)

I love you Grandma and i will NEVER forget you, i promise.<3<3<3<3